Where I'm At Right Now

The journey of healing continues for me and while on this journey, I’ve learned a lot. There are things that my eyes have been opened to that I’ve been oblivious to in the past, things that I’ve been realizing, things that I have awakened to. It’s a bit like an onion that has layers and with each layer that has been removed, more has been revealed to me. Some things are not as they seem, and there are some who think they can get by with mistreating a person/situation and taking advantage of them. I suppose I am one who likes to give the benefit of the doubt, and maybe I have seen all the warning signs, but I just didn’t want to believe it or I at one time hoped that something would change. I tried to be as supportive and helpful as possible. I tried my hardest to remain steadfast and loyal to those whom I had supported, only to be let down in the end. I made the mistake of accommodating those around me, only to be treated as though I was invisible or not good enough. When does it get to the point when it’s time to say enough is enough? What happens when a person is pushed beyond their limit?

I believe, at least in my experience, that there comes a time when a person decides to be done with certain situations and just walk away. That’s where I was nineteen days ago, and I didn’t look back as I made the decision to walk away. Sometimes that’s the only thing a person can do for their own peace of mind, especially if they know that nothing will ever change or things keep getting worse. There are some things that just didn’t seem to work out for me, and perhaps it never did, but once again, I’ve been awakened to the truth.

I don’t regret walking away, and although there are some things that I may miss, I realize that the things that I could miss are no longer there, at least not as they once were, and they probably never will be. It will never be as enjoyable as it used to be.

On that note, I will use the time that I would’ve spent on those things and invest it in the things that are enjoyable, such as my writing and my game development projects. I’m not going to let certain circumstances rob me of the enjoyment that I get when I work on my projects. By walking away from certain situations, I find myself enjoying the other things a bit more, and I’m not feeling the weight of being discouraged, disgusted, dissatisfied, depressed, or drained. It also frees up more of my time so I can get more accomplished, and I’m not feeling overwhelmed. I’m more at peace since I decided to cut certain things out of my life. The dark cloud of dread is gone, and I even feel lighter, as if a heavy weight had been lifted from me.

Within the past several days, I haven’t really worked too much on any of my projects. I took a break from them for several days last week, and it was nice. One of the things I did was watch the movie Loving Vincent. I found it to be quite interesting, and I am a fan of Vincent Van Gogh. He’s one of my favorite artists. The work in this movie was amazing, and I would recommend it to anyone who enjoys art, or anyone who enjoys Van Gogh’s art in particular.

There were several other things that I did to just relax and unwind, and it was rather nice. It was a nice little break that I had taken, but of course, I haven’t yet continued to work on any of my projects. I was working on other things, but hopefully soon I’ll be able to get back to what I was doing before I took a break.

There were a few things that I had worked on before taking a break. One of them was a book that I had recently released. The story focuses more on Oliver’s twin brother, Obadiah, and the struggles that he faces. The story serves as a prequel to one of my series, which has Obadiah as the main focus.

https://www.amazon.com/Echoes-Despair-Departure-M-Y-Hauger-ebook/dp/B0FCJHK4MK

Another thing that I had completed recently was the release of a new game, What Happened To Steven? This game is a point and click teaser game for the series Stranded. It's a short story driven game with a mystery to solve. The player has to figure out what happened to Kurtis’ older brother, Steven. This is based on an event that took place in Union Of Sorrows 5: Vindictive Resentment.

https://gamejolt.com/games/what-happened-to-steven/995951

https://my-hauger.itch.io/what-happened-to-steven

I also worked on updates for each of the games in the Stranded series and there will also be a demo for the upcoming game Stranded 4. The updates are set to release on the first of July, which would be the three-year anniversary of the first Stranded game, the two-year anniversary of Stranded 2, and the one-year anniversary of Stranded 3. The first Stranded game was the first game that I had released and one of four of the first game development projects that I had originally worked on. It was based on the book Union Of Sorrows: The Beginning, which had turned five years old earlier this year.

https://www.amazon.com/Union-Sorrows-Beginning-M-Y-Hauger-ebook/dp/B086PHDXW6

https://gamejolt.com/games/77a7/730109

https://my-hauger.itch.io/stranded

I’m also planning to work on updates for one of my other game series, The Mystery Of The Rebels, which focuses heavily on the character, Oliver. The game/series is a point-and-click mystery game/series where you make choices to solve mysteries. There are also several puzzles and minigames within the game(s). The first game in this series was the second game that I had released, with its three-year anniversary approaching on July 29th. I’m hoping to release a fourth game in the series, but I’m not sure whether I’d be able to complete it by the time I would hope to complete it, since these games do take a lot of work to create.

https://gamejolt.com/games/mysteryoftherebels/737850

https://my-hauger.itch.io/the-mystery-of-the-rebels